part of being an adult is living with regret and not allowing it to consume you. the older you get, the more mistakes you make, the more opportunities you missed, the more people you’ve let down. forgive yourself. don’t beat yourself up. you’re still learning: this is a journey.
Chances are nobody’s going to judge you, beat you up, harder than you have, or will. Which is hard because you’re the only person you literally have control over how they treat you.
I work every day to remember this. The impulse to live in regret never completely goes away. But learn from those who love you: you’re loveable! Learn to forgive yourself.